i should have loved a thunderbird instead by annie zeng

I guess this is the end of it all. No more.I've deleted every single(well not every single one) of your messages on Friday 4th August 2006. Amazing, ain't it?A whole year.It took me a whole year to let go.To tell the truth, I don't know why it is called letting go when I never had you in the first place.I was too blind to see.I should have known, it was there all along.But it took me this long to realise that it was never meant to be. No matter how much I do for you, it is never anything.Only when you need help do you turn around and crawl to me.When you don't need help, I might as well don't exist. So much for your "I thank God for friends like you".I doubt we are considered as friends, because the last time I checked, friends talk to each other and they are there for each other no matter what happens.So don't pretend to care, because throughout this course of the year, I've come to understand that you don't give a damn.Well, I guess we've now gone down to friends who only smile and acknowledge each other when they meet, feeling too awkward to talk.Then after half a year or so, we'll just simply have to pretend not to see each other, because even the smile wouldn't belong.After that comes the gradual fading away from each other's lives.That would be the true goodbye.And in answer to your question, yes I am very angry.You make me sick.You have proven to be a big disappointment.
I should have loved a thunderbird instead, at least when spring comes they roar back again.

omg. so good, isn't it! i love this. and i used to be able to relate to it.
that time i was so angry that 214 email messages went down the drain. such a pity. could have used as blackmail =).
and plus my diary pages which had this name were promptly ripped out until i practically only had the diary cover left =0! ok i was just kidding. but the email thing was real. wonder if i could retrieve?
and saved msn convos, bye bye. my trash can was so full it could have burst. ok, sorry, the trash can on the screen cannot BURST. but whatever.
and i ignored! yes i ignored! i think ignoring people has been my biggest achievement. i always succeed in ignoring people. =)
but that's all over, and i'm open to a new world, a new life, a new love. still waiting for you!