THIS IS TRUE.. WELL, HALF TRUE. =)

i'm a bad person. really, i mean it. i've lied, i've hurt, i've been mean. i'm not worth hanging around. oh plus, i'm annoying, arrogant, and a total failure. i should not have been born.
i keep making others angry. and i know that you've been angry at me before too. and i think the only reason why others actually forgive me is because of my tireless pestering. i wonder if you all are talking about me behind my back.
i don't like attention. i never want to attract it. but it somehow happens and you people out there start saying that i'm drama-ish or whatever. i won't fight with you people. you're always right, i'm always wrong.
sometimes, i don't know how to face the world. i dont' know how i manage to get out of bed every morning to face evryone. i don't know how i somehow mix in, though i know perfectly well i don't.
maybe its because of you. my inspiration. without you, my heart may have died, a long, long time ago. it is you whom i look up to, it is you whom i admire. yet, you sometimes don't even notice my presence. with you, i am able to fully express myself, to just relax. but i don't know if you like me. not even as a freind. and i do think that me being close to you may not be possible. but to tell the truth, i really like you. you are unlike all the other guys i've met. so far, no one is as cute, as funny, as thoughful, as everything that you are.
but you hurt me. now, i cannot believe what you say. i can only believe that carly wu is a total failure, a stupid girl who can't achieve her dreams. you need to give me proof.
and that proof, well, it may never be found. because you'll probably never do it. we'll probably walk different steps, never see each other again, and i don't want that to happen. no. but what can i do about it?
i'm just a lonely girl. in a lonely world. just a simple smile can make me feel better. but it never comes from you.
crap. this sucks.