PS. before you read this, i must warn you. it is utter rubbish. it does not mean anything AT ALL.

one and a half years. quite long isn't it? it took me all that time to realise it. you're not worth it.
how could i have not seen it earlier? you seemed perfect. i thought i liked you. loved you. but i guess im wrong, as usual.
you lied. how could you lie about such a thing? i was so happy at first. but now, after you trashed me, im sure you never once told me the truth. except this time. but guess what? i don't care anymore.
why didn't you just tell me the truth? that you liked someone else? if you told me earlier, it would save me my tears and pain.
they say that it wouldn't be a crush if it didn't hurt. you probably don't even know im hurting. you probably don't even care. well, thats your choice.
but still. i hope that we can still be friends. you promised before. don't forget now.
first crush blues.
no matter what you did, i still thank you. for what? for being my first crush.